My mother was at work the night my stepdad dad raped me. My sister and brothers were sleeping, I was sleeping too.
My stepdad was the only one that was awake, he came into my room, he asked me if I wanted him to read me a bed time story I said that I had wanted to go back to sleep.
But he never left.
He then asked me if I wanted to play husband and wife, I said yes because I thought he meant playing with me new dolls house with me.
Then he demand I take off my clothes.
I did as he said.
I was 6 years old; I had no idea what he was doing.
He left my room for a couple of minutes, then he came back with my sister, some duct tape, and a knife.
My sister was only 7 turning 8 soon, this is what I said to my sister “Yea Melinda you’re going to play dolly house too”.
She did not seem to be happy about it.
She then told me that it’s not what I thought it was.
I didn’t understand what she meant by that.
My stepdad raped me that night, I was 6 years old
My dad came towards me and put some duct tape over my mouth, he said “Darling don’t say a word ok? Everything will be just fine, don’t cry or anything it will hurt at first but you will get used to it”
He told me that if I didn’t tell anyone then he would buy me a new doll.
He asked me to lie down, I did.
He kept telling me what a good girl I was.
I cried when he pushed something inside of me, I screamed in pain.
My sister closed her eyes and pushed her fingers tight into her ears.
He told my sister that it was her turn next. She ran out of the room.
She could no longer stand and watch as my stepdad raped me, knowing that she was going to be next.
He finally took the tape off my mouth and I screamed. I was so afraid and I hurt so much.
I cannot describe the pain.
I bit his arm; he slapped me hard across the face.
I remember the blood; it was streaming down my legs. He took me into the bathroom and turned on the shower.
After showering me clean he reminded me not to tell anyone.
I told my mum, she didn’t believe me. Told me that she loved my stepdad and she was not going to leave him because of me.
I grew up to hate them both.
I still hate them now.
My stepdad raped me and my mum decided to stay with that monster.
I feel I have lost everything because of that man.
I am so confused because I thought a mother was meant to protect her child, I need someone to explain to me why she let this happen.
It’s something that keeps me awake at night and stops me from moving forward.
I need to know why my mum didn’t believe me.
This post is an anonymous post written by an inspiring mum who wishes to share her own experience in the hope of helping others. I have full permission to share this story. Why not share your own story?